Project

so im on day five of my project (Project 365) which so its really its really day six.

but its gona be great :]

My World

sometimes things are bad. sometimes things are great. but no matter what, i know i have that one person who will never leave my side. he loves me through my imperfections, and he sees past my issues. no one can ever take my love away from me. its not gona happen. i love him more than anything in the world. theres nothing i wouldnt do for him. hes the only person whose ever stuck by me, whose ever been true to their word. my world would be a dark hole without him.

i have a lot on my mind right now, but il put more on later. <5

The Past

the past is something people always look back on, no matter who they are. whether its about their childhood or the day before last. its the past. its something thats with us always, and theres no getting rid of it. and theres no truly forgetting it. but theres always remembering it, and accepting it, and moving on. people try to hold onto what they had for as long as they can, but nothing really lasts forever. they end everyday. its a fact of life. people hold onto what they can, and what they cant, sometimes they want the most. but other people just look towards the future more, thinking about what they want. although, that may just ruin their chances at that future, because they become obsessed with what they want, and they do what they can to get that, and lose all chances at what they wanted. then theres the ones taking it one day at a time. living as it comes.

some people miss who they were, some people miss who they wanted to be, some people do neither.

if i could go back ten years and someone asked me if i could see myself here, where i am, my answer would probably have to be maybe. i love where im at, and now i cant see myself anywhere else, actually, i havent tried and i dont want to. im dating a marine, and im doing what i can do to get through the day. ever since i was little, its never been about princesses & butterflies & bows & pink, its been about fishing & camping & frogs, & dogs, & trees & blue & green & oceans & family & third world countries & Army. since after all, my grandpa was Sgt. Major <3 then there was a boy once who told me, he was going to join the marines, but he chickened out, twice and i was whatever about it, this boy didnt seem to care about me like he said, nor did he until he lost me. and now, the love of my life, is PFCS, usmc stylee.
im chose the life to live though, and i wouldnt change it for a thing. okaay, maybe the distance right now, but thats it. other than that, i wouldnt exchange my life for the world. the man i love, loves me, & thats all thats important<5

"you dont take pictures of things you want to forget"

"When you think about your past, you're given examples of what not to repeat. When you think of the memories, you're given examples of what you want again."

La La La

ahh, been few days; so la la la. hah. i have a doctors appointment tomorrow morning :O

i was sitting there in class today thinking about my goals, and then i decided im gona make a list. maybe il put it on here, actually i will. but i have to make the list first. hha. im still not even done putting everything on here that i wana; but il get around to it eventually ayy. i still have school stuff i need to catch up on and get done, since its due in like a week. ha.

in first hour, i was sitting by my friend, who wants to join the air force, and we started talking about the marines, considering. so i let her text my baby and ask him stuff. we started talking about things, and i realized things were going on inside my brain that i never realized was really there. that'll go in somethin else, though.


i saw this today, haha
Marines: Many Americans Running Into Never Ending Shit

Doctors

i have decidedd know NOTHING. stupid consult today and the lady told me i have to go back to school "because its junior year, the pain will eventually go away" EFF that. if im in pain, hell yeah im gona call my mom and get out. i still have A LOT of work i need to do still. so i might wana stop writing this and do it, but writing is what i do. i'd rather write about nothing and everything that no one tells me what to write about, than to write about something for something specific. its gay. i have a sniz load of research to do too. this weekend just might be a long one.

i only got like an hour of sleep last night so im like half asleep right now, but its not even eight thirty so im not going to bed. and im gona try to work on my work but geeez. i'd rather just take classes online and get it over with that way. im already behind enough as it is. why not just start over? :|
anyhow; homework. for now. blaahhh.

"Win or lose, do it fairly." - Knute Rockne

Lack Of Sleep

well, my love kept me up all night. agaaiin. nothing new theree thoughh. he also got me back on the computer, hahaa. it seems that i have a greater lack of sleep when hes home, still a thousand miles away might i add, than when he was deployed. haha but thats okay, because i love him nonetheless. :] so being in my lack-of-sleep way that i am right now, im hungry, which i dont wana get up to sneak into the kitchen to get something, so ima wait. i think whats really keepin me up is one, Tony of course, two, the perfect view of the moon and the stars i have. this is why i love September, its when the stars really show. haha, so he (tony) made an account & i told him how to make a post, and he posted his first blog today im so prouda him :D we also determined were getting a chimp, & that his hairgel has a snappy cap & his comb hasa handle, haha. oh & i have a doctors appointment later today. i hear the train(: woot(: kay, i think this is good for now :]

<5

"Facts are the air of scientists. Without them you can never fly." - Dr. Linus Pauling

Semper Fi Life

this is my blog for my Marine girlfriend life, its complicated, but its life. its something that i cherish deeply. i have a lot of girls who got my back, i have a man who would take a bullet for me no questions (but i wouldnt let him of course) he would stop the world if he could and i asked. i love my Marine. i love my Marine sisters. i love my military sisters. im proud of my boyfriend for everything he does, and il add on to this everyday, but im still in the process of getting the page set up too, i just cant sit still that long to get it done all at once :]